Confessions of A Working Girl

The way things are going, I'm not going back to college this year. I have been turned down for five seperate student loans (for five different amounts, from five different companies) and even after financial aid, I would owe $7000 for the semester. So I probably can't go back. And that means I just wasted four years of my life getting credits towards a degree I'm not going to earn, only getting debt in return. That's not right. Why is education so expensive? And, understanding that more and more of the population is poor, why can't they still give loans to students who need them? But noooo, they refuse. It's a crazy viscious cycle too. Get in debt in order to make more money in order to stay out of debt. >.<

And too, minimum wage is not enough to live on. Which is wrong...that was, I thought, the whole point of having a minimum wage--it was the lowest that it was possible to live on. But it isn't. Most people I know who have to work for minimum wage have to also work a minimum of two jobs. That leaves zero time for anything else.

I hate the world. Or at least, America. I should have gone to school in Germany or something. I've heard that they give enough financial aid to cover what the student cannot.

As everyone keeps telling me, I could take a year off, earn some money and then go back. I hate that idea. Not only because its stupid, but because last time I was away from school that long, I went back and had a horrible year. Really horrible. My GPA dropped like 1. someodd points.

I have a week to figure this out, to find if there is some way that I may possibly get $7000 before October. It isn't really looking plausible though. Which comes back to I've wasted like four years of my life, and gone into debt for absolutely nothing.